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[Jul. 12th, 2008|12:01 pm] |
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I'm not doing this anymore. I'm not going to be anyone's second choice or easy hook-up. Tired of it all. All it's really doing is making me feel worthless and cheap. I let it happen before and I let it happen again and I'll be damned if I let it happen a third time (actually fourth). I've learned that I can't be "Friend's with extra shit" I get emotionally attached and in the end I get nothing. My heart breaks a little more each time. And my self esteem is reduced to the same level that it was in grade-school...which was pretty fucking low. All I want is a relationship and to be loved to find good company, laugh all that good shite, and to love in return. And I wonder if I'll ever get that. Not in a "OHHH I'll never ever find someone EVER" emo whine thing. But I'm seriously considering that I just don't get anything that I want. I don't think I'm a bad person...just a sap and a sucker. Maybe that's what they see and that's why they felt like they could just...well I don't know. I put myself in those situations though. I was just hoping that something could come from it with each person though... And my self-esteem and self-worth crumbles to the ground when I realize that they only wanted "certain" things from me.
Whatever I'll get over it. |
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Dude didn't I tell you this before? a 2nd time? what r you doing?! If you wanna find that someone to love make sure that they have no xtra baggage. U should know this. U even agreed that this was some rebound thing the dude is doing. Stop falling for dumb men! (see u should stick with the ladies. Half of the male race r dogs.
Anyway good get over it. Go to Club and find someone cool and FREE(single)
Anyway I guess ur text message hug is from this sadness. *hugs back* Now if u have free time soon, hurry and play with me, cause the week coming up, I'm not free anymore. :(
Now I demand you be happy. Chopstick
*hugs you* you just got to learn how to play the game better is all.
im not gonna say all men are doggs cuz i am a man. but most dudes are just out for the pussy. u just need to find a single person that likes you as much as you like them.
dont loss ur self-worth n all...ur the shit...just put urself ouut there...end of story....dc. phil in 5 secs. | |
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